I spontaneously decided to post a piece of writing that's part of a larger project...
This is me penguin pebbling with my vulnerability. And giving sneak peaks.
TW: Childhood cPTSD/RSD
Part of unpacking my trauma has been understanding how I went from hyper-verbal to… not. Because nothing ever changed in my head.
Then I started to remember things like...
When I was 5, a safe person “jokingly” shoved a paper towel in my mouth because I was excitedly “talking too much”
When I was about 7, a safe person loudly told me to “shut up” when I was excitedly “talking too much”
I learned to stop talking so much, which was devastating since it was a main form of regulation for me.
Anyway, this piece was inspired by this part of my journey.